Thursday, November 28, 2013

11/28/2013

Dear Friend,
      It's Thanksgiving and It's time to find what you're thankful but it's really hard when you are depressed. Believe me I know I'm privileged too the max but I can't just find myself to be happy with what I have. Objects mean nothing when you have nothing to fill the void, no one to fill that space that you know should be there. I have created this fake persona that doesn't even remember I exist or care but I wish it was true so much that I have all my friends and myself included fooled. I think I need help.
-Love Always Mitchell

Monday, September 2, 2013

09/2/13

Dear Friend, 
     I hate myself. I always mess up the great things I have. I should of known he didn't mean it when he said he loved me on Friday before I got on the plane. But I believed it and said it back and now its falling down.
-Love Always Mitchell

Sunday, July 7, 2013

7/7/13

Dear Friend,
      Do you ever want to talk to someone but you feel like you’re bothering them or coming off clingy. Or that you don’t have anything to say, you just want to talk to them. Or you don’t know how to hold a conversation to save your life that would be me and I really only wanna talk to one person and thats Kyle and I hate myself more and more for it.
-Love Always Mitchell

Sunday, June 30, 2013

6/30/13

Dear Friend,
     I know you're most likely tired of hearing this but my only problem is Kyle. He is untouchable like a distant diamond sky and I'm caught up in him even though I know he is a jerk. He plays his girlfriend and always comments on how other girls are hot, which yes hurts me to know he is straight but it also hurts me that I called him out on it saying don't you have a girlfriend and his response was she is in Orlando. That's not how it's suppose to be and I really need to get over him because he is a jerk and I can't take obsessing over him much longer.
-Love Always Mitchell

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

6/25/13

Dear Friend,  
       It’s scary to find someone that makes you happy. You start giving them all of your attention because they’re what makes you forget everything bad that’s going on in your life. They’re the first person you want to talk to in the morning and the last one before you sleep just so you can start and end your day with a smile. It all sounds great to have that someone, but it’s scary to think about how easily they could just leave and take that happiness away too when they go. I want to tell Kyle that this is how I feel about him but I can't I'm to shy, but I just hope one day I will gather enough courage to tell him and it turns out okay.
-Love Always Mitchell



Friday, June 21, 2013

6/21/2013

Dear Friend,
       This week again has been hectic summer is here! Finally the only thing left of school is the summer assignment and the only drama I have is Kyle. I still can't figure him out he isn't like my usual crushes you know its like Sometimes you meet someone and even though you never liked brown eyes before, their eyes are your favourite colour now and sometimes you meet someone who can make the sickest addictions seem beautiful and sometimes there’s some people you’d rather sit on a couch with and drink some gas station coffee and read your favourite books over and over while you forget that dinners on the stove so it gets burned but you still think it’s delicious anyway.
-Love Always Mitchell

Sunday, June 2, 2013

6/2/13

Dear Friend,
     I've finally had time to write to you tonight. Things have been hectic between work and school but tomorrow starts my last week until summer! I am  going to try to write to you at least once a week again because I love going back and reading what happened to me that week later in life. I got my first ticket ever this week and I also messed a pretty promising relationship but that's life. I have down pretty hard for this boy Kyle now though I don't know what it is about him his cockiness or the fact that he is pretty damn attractive but I do know one thing I'm head over heels for him. I really wish I wasn't though because he is straight and has a girlfriend but I can't help it. I think it was a mistake getting him the job with me because I'm depressed when hes not there and i'm sad about him not being with me when he is I don't know I can't wait for summer so I can figure things out. I hope I get a summer thing because I've had nothing but anyways its getting late and I have a history eoc tomorrow morning
-Love Always Mitchell

Friday, April 5, 2013

4/5/13

Dear Friend,
Today is the last day I will be writing to you for a long time I'm grounded my life has fallen apart and I have no where left to go. I got awful grades for quarter 3 and I've lost everything from my parents. Including there trust. However they lost mine as well. I skipped school and I don't know why. I lied about it which made it worse and now I have nothing but work to escape my awful home life all I can say is I need to get out. I need a new life because I'm done with this one. I don't know when and if I'll be back but all I can say Is you have always been here for me and I respect you for that.
-Love Always Mitchell


Monday, March 25, 2013

3/25/13

Dear Friend,
      Today is the day I'm going to start Mancrush Monday so number 1 is Logan Lerman who I have loved forever.
-Love Always Mitchell

3/25/13

Dear Friend,

Musical Monday number 8: Katy Perry Part of Me acoustic :)
-Love Always Mitchell

3/25/13

Dear Friend,
I really hate life again. I'm so tired of my family I can't wait to move out and be on my own. But thats another thing I don't know who I'm going to live with. I'm also be untruthful about this boy Tyler's sexuality to my best friend and its because its the only way I feel good about having a crush on him again. Carley likes his personality so it would be a good couple if only it was real. However I really hope I find someone soon because I'm sinking when I said I wouldn't.
-Love Always Mitchell




Monday, March 18, 2013

Monday, March 11, 2013

Monday, March 4, 2013

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

2/26/13

Dear Friend,
      Today's post is about these perfect guys right here. I never really believed that a band could change your life but now I do I don't know how I would do it without these boys right here. They make me feel good about myself when I'm down. I believe that they keep me going every single day. Allstar Weekend are my mentors and best friends at the same time. I've seen them live 3 times now and every time I love them more and more. At the last concert the Last time started playing and I got really emotional because it is the last time I am going to be able to see them and I don't know what I'm gonna do. I hope I'm alright though.
-Love Always Mitchell

Monday, February 25, 2013

2/25/13

Dear Friend,
It's time for Musical Monday todays song is by Ed Sheeran :) MM 4: Give me Love.
-Love always Mitchell

Thursday, February 21, 2013

2/21/13

Dear Friend,
Today I'm writing to you from my spanish class. The class where I sit and do nothing all period. I should probably pay attention since spanish is a good skill to learn but I just can't learn from this awful teacher. Life has been really good lately I have some friends that I have become close to they remind me of the group of friends in The Perks of Being a Wallflower. Now all I need is a boyfriend to not let me sink.
-Love Always Mitchell


Monday, February 18, 2013

2/18/2013

Dear Friend,
      Third time of Musical Monday! MM day 3: Stay Rihanna feat. Mikky Ekko
-Love always Mitchell

Monday, February 11, 2013

2/11/13

Dear Friend,
I'm taking a break from musical monday this week because I feel like I've neglected my letters to you. A lot has happened since I last wrote to you and I really feel bad about not telling you. So here it goes, the first information is I got fired from my job from Basils and got rehired at Wendy's fast food for life... Not. Second I went to my Allstar Weekend concert!!! It was the best night of my life and I learned I need to treat Aliyah a lot better because I don't know what I would do without her. I also found a new love for Cute is what we Aim for the lead singer Shaant is so cute. And finally my Mom is getting married on Valentines day. Do I have a Valentine? No and doubt I will for a while because I've been getting more ugly and more ugly as the days go on. Well I have nothing left to say, Perks of being a Wallflower comes out on Dvd tomorrow!!
My inspiration in movie form.
-Love Always Mitchell




Monday, February 4, 2013

2/4/13

Dear Friend,
        Time for the second day of Musical Monday MM day 2: The Last Time Allstar Weekend.
-Love always Mitchell

Monday, January 28, 2013

1/28/13

Dear Friend,
Today I am going to start doing Musical Monday! MM Day 1: Bon Iver: Skinny Love
-Love Always Mitchell

Friday, January 25, 2013

01/25/13

Dear Friend,
I've got it down hard for a boy named Noah. He's straight of course /: which really upsets me but today I said my first words to him which was awesome and to make things even better he was pretty much naked when I did. I just hope he doesn't sink my ship as the anchor.
-Love Always Mitchell

Thursday, January 24, 2013

1/24/13

Dear Friend,
I feel like it's been forever but in truth it hasn't. I finally got a Batman jacket in the time frame though. This year is going by so slow. I failed my driving test because I didn't know what a 3-point turn is. Life isn't going to swell for me lately, work sucks, love sucks, life sucks. Please comeback.
-Love always Mitchell

Thursday, January 17, 2013

01/17/13

Dear Friend,
Today is birthday it was a really good day I just don't know what to say other than that boring life. I saw Noah and Gavinn today which made me happy :).
Wish you were here but I have a friend over so I need to hang out with her.
-Love always Mitchell

Thursday, January 10, 2013

01/10/13

Dear friend,
Sorry friend I've been really busy /: lots of homework and I've been working a lot I'm really stressed with exams coming up and my HOSA project and getting my license I will try to write more though. On a better note Katy Perry won 4 peoples choice awards :D so this picture is in honor of her.
-Love Always Mitchell

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

01/01/13


Dear Friend,
      New years day today, new me? Not really I wish but no. I really wish I can get a boyfriend this year it would literally be the best I'm so lonely. I have also been thinking of writing an Adventure book (shown below) but I don't know how I would get one. I also bought Lana Del Reys album this week which gives me more music to listen to when I'm alone. And finally the last news is my Step sister Sarah well soon to be step sister went home today which makes me sad because she took away the pain for a little while I really hope she gets to come back because I really do like her and my parents would get married.
- Love always Mitchell

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

12/26/12

Dear Friend,
I don't have much to stay I'm out of touch and out of love. I think I forgot my friends birthday if we even call each other that anymore I don't know. I really miss her but what can you do? Friends come, friends go. I'm on break right now so I feel even more alone. I hate work but I need to keep working so I can stay at Palmetto. I don't know what I would do if I had to leave my friends. And finally I bought Ed Sheerans CD today it is really nice and reminds me of you.
-Love Always Mitchell

Friday, December 21, 2012

12/21/12

Dear Friend,
End of the world? Feels like it, can Christmas come already? Off to Disney today and I'm actually looking forward to it other than my step family coming with me. I get to see "snow" again though! If you didn't shoot yourself last may you could come with me. But that's ok I really miss you.
-Love Always Mitchell

Thursday, December 13, 2012

12/13/12

Dear Friend,
This week I don't want to end, mostly because I don't want to go to work. Sad I know what kid doesn't look forward to the weekend. But I can't help it thats the time I have work and I'm alone to think about the bad things in life and make me sad. I really need to Open my eyes to the good but its hard when I'm alone.
-Love Always Mitchell

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

12/5/12

Dear Friend,
      Today I'm going to use a couple quotes for my writing, first "When your'e 15 and someone tells you they love you you're gonna believe it" but people change their minds. And its true but try not to fall in love because I have been taught that everything that falls gets broken. The second quote is "People come, people go, life doesn't stop for anybody." This is also true because friends that we have in high school and people we date rarely ever go on with us in life. I'm almost 100% however we would be together after school.
     -Love always Mitchell

Thursday, November 29, 2012

11/29/12

Dear friend,
It's the end of the month and I feel like no time has gone by. The new change however is who I like. I like this boy named Gavinn he isn't the most attractive person but I think he is cute. He always stares at me and I really like that because it could mean he kind of likes me. This makes me smile because I really like him I've never actually talked to him but I've heard him talk (I know, I know creepy) but I can't help it he just drags me in. People keep telling me I should talk to him but I I'm scared too. I guess all I need is "20 seconds of insane courage" to talk to him and just do it hey it might even get me a boyfriend.
-Love always Mitchell

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

11/21/12

Dear Friend,
      "White lips, pale face, Breathing in snowflakes, Burnt lungs, sour taste, Light's gone, day's end, Struggling to pay rent, Long nights, strange men." I feel like I am walking through a snowstorm and I can't find the way out. I can tell people are getting tired of my problems but I keep telling them as if someone cares. At the end of the day I guess the only person you have is yourself right? Least that's what I am told I know if you were here you would have better advice.
                                                                -Love always Mitchell

Sunday, November 18, 2012

11/18/12

Dear friend,
      Just let it all go. I'm alone again and I'm not just feeling alone I'm actually alone. Yes I have friends but most I can't trust like I can you. I wish you were back so I could get. I wish I could just bottle up my problems in a ballon and just let go but I can't because I keep it all inside. I really wish I kept to my promise of writing you every week but it's hard right now because of my job and trying to spend time with my nom so she will let me stay at my high school. If I have to leave I will have no friends and be that kid who sits alone at lunch and I can't be that because I will cry. But on a better note happy Thanksgiving enjoy your turkey up in the sky.
                                                     -Love always Mitchell

Thursday, November 8, 2012

11/8/12

Dear Friend,
      New month, new president, new marriage legal, new everything but same old me. I have been feeling really alone these days sorry I am a little late in writing to you this week been busy. But I guess not that busy because I have been on Tumblr and things I know what can I say obsessed. Sometimes though I feel like internet people are the only ones there for me when I down. Well God to but someones I think he gets tired of my problems which I know is untrue but I still think it. "These are dark times Mr. Potter, there is no denying." I am not really sure why I chose that quote just then maybe because I do feel like our country is a mess right now and I am one too but needless to say I miss you more and more each day.
 -Love always Mitchell

                                                   

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

10/30/2012

Dear Friend,
      Life that's all I have to say it's always stressful especially these days I got a new job and today was the first day. I am also starting volunteering for Tidewell Hospice. Through this I have my home life and school to deal with but I think I can pull it off just forget about my social life. If you were here I would have someone to share these events with. But you're not but I don't blame you for this because well it wasn't your choice to leave it was Gods but that's also fine because when I am done with life I will be with you. Oh and tomorrow is Halloween so I suppose Happy Halloween miss you.
-Love Always Mitchell

Thursday, October 25, 2012

10/25/12

Dear Friend,
Today was a stressful day and I don't have much to say but I promised once a week so this is a my failed attempt at writing to you this week but here it goes. Today I had my first HOSA conference that was embarrassing because I had the wrong outfit on. Then I went to get fingerprinted so I can volunteer with Hospice and my grandma yelled at me the whole way fun.. Then we went to my sisters soccer game and that was really awesome because I love to see her do what she loves. But overall it is awesome because its my role models birthday KATY PERRY!!!!! ahh I love her soo much.
Love always -Mitchell
   

Saturday, October 20, 2012

10/20/2012

Dear Friend,
       These are confusing times in life. I can't tell if my mom is happy or just given up, Does true love exist? I don't know if it even does for me right now. Every option I ever have is always taken from me. I don't know how love works or how God plans it to work but I really do hope I find it someday even if that day isn't for a long time. I feel like i'm living in a mirror everything always turns around on me and I don't know how much more I can take you led me on dropped me and here we are again. You told me you liked me, you tell me you want me, but if you really wanted me you would chase me wouldn't you? I want to sit out in the night time with that one person and just watch the moon well waves crash the shore. Sometimes we don't get what we want. I don't know I hope where ever you are friend, that you love someone and never leave because that's what we all want and what we thrive on. This crazy stupid thing called Love.
-Love always Mitchell

Friday, October 12, 2012

100 Things about me


Thing I love in Life:

  1. I love God
  2. I love Katy Perry
  3. I love the Ocean
  4. I love Colton Haynes
  5. I love Fall
  6. I love Tigers
  7. I love Pretty Little Liars
  8. I want a Tattoo
  9. I am Gay
  10. I am always lost in thought
  11. I love Niall Horan
  12. I am obsessed with big cities
  13. I love Degrassi
  14. I love the New Normal
  15. I love Logan Lerman
  16. I love the Hunger Games
  17. Roses are my favorite flower
  18. French Fries are my favorite food
  19. Vans are my favorite shoes
  20. I love Allstar Weekend
  21. I love Marina and the Diamonds
  22. I love Taylor Swift
  23. I love Finding Nemo
  24. I love surfing
  25. I love Disney World
  26. I love Blue eyes
  27. I love Art
  28. I love Batman
  29. I love Captain America
  30. I love Zac Efron
  31. I love Perks of Being a Wallflower
  32. I love Paris
  33. I love Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends
  34. I love Ke$ha
  35. I love Ariana Grande
  36. I love Glee
  37. I love Harry Potter
  38. My favorite color is blue
  39. I love Percy Jackson
  40. I love Ray Bands
  41. I love Jack and Finn Harries
  42. I love the Wanted
  43. I love Fireworks
  44. I love Megan Fox
  45. I love Teen Wolf
  46. I love the Olympics
  47. I love California
  48. I love London
  49. Jenna Marbles is my role model
  50. I love Emma Stone
  51. I love Channing Tatum
  52. I love Pixar
  53. I love Rollar Coasters
  54. I love Rome
  55. I love Christmas Lights
  56. I love Plaid
  57. Lockhart Brownlie is my favorite dancer
  58. My favorite movies are We bought a Zoo, Letters to Juliet, Perks of Being a Wallflower
  59. I'm a dog person
  60. I'm a dreamer
  61. I love snapbacks
  62. I love bracelets
  63. I love Ice Cream
  64. Bow Ties are sexy
  65. I love Nicki Minaj
  66. I love Volleyball
  67. Watching the Sun Set
  68. I love Summer
  69. I want to go to a boarding school
  70. I love Tumblr
  71. I love Twitter
  72. I love Starbucks
  73. I love quotes
  74. I love the way the sun shines through the trees
  75. I love making 11:11 wishes
  76. I love Boy Bands
  77. I love Switched at Birth
  78. I love Awkward
  79. I love Sports cars
  80. I love Ferris Wheels
  81. I love Sea Turtles
  82. I love Beau Mirchoff
  83. I love drawing in the sand
  84. I love music
  85. I love Rihanna
  86. I love Dolphins
  87. I love Fireflys
  88. I love Sparklers
  89. I love Rain
  90. I love Sail Boats
  91. I love the Fair
  92. I love Venice
  93. I love Balloons
  94. I love the Sound of Waves crashing on the shore
  95. I love Hugs
  96. I love Converse
  97. I love dancing
  98. I love singing
  99. I love holding hands
  100. I love being me.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

10/7/12

Dear friend.,
     Today I went and saw the movie that inspired me to create this blog. I read the book and It's my favorite book so I decided I would go see the movie and my favorite actor Logan Lerman is in it so that was a bonus. The movie is called The Perks of Being a Wallflower, I love the word wallflower because it means someone who see things and keeps quiet about them and understands. The movie got me thinking about things like "I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. My life is a mess from the home but when I leave this place I will start a new and become something amazing. and feel Infinite.
-Love always Mitchell



Tuesday, October 2, 2012

10/2/12

Dear Friend,
Hello October though it isn't the same as it is up north its still my favorite month because I can start to wear hoodies everyday and everyone just seems a little closer during fall time. I love Halloween and I love little things like decorating and eating those little Pillsbury cookies with the ghosts and pumpkins on them. I think I'll try to carve my pumpkin into something like the Mockingjay from the Hunger Games this year I don't know though still deciding. This will be the first year I'm not trick or treating but I think it will still rock. I don't know I am just really excited for it as always. Well its about time for me to go eat dinner home made chicken noodle yum :) Grams specialty. 
-Love always Mitchell





Friday, September 28, 2012

9/28/2012

Dear Friend,
I want this so bad I finally decided who I want. I choose Courtland he is so sweet and makes me smile and  just makes me happy. I know I told you this would happen the whole High School Kid depressed then becomes a new but I don't know what to tell you because its what happens in my life. Can I say I'm complaining no I can't because love is what everyone wants we all want someone to love and to call ours and I hope everyone in life can find that person who makes them happy by just being themselves.
-Love always Mitchell

Monday, September 17, 2012

9/17/12

     Dear Friend,

      Today was a confusing day I don't know if it was the fact that I feel so alone or that no one was here. I walk the halls and the smile never leaves my face when I'm with people but the truth is it's a different feeling to smile and fake it rather than feel happy. I know I know the High school kid depressed because they are alone then ends up finding love. What can I say I live a stereotypical High school life. But if these kind of stories entertain you then here it is my High School story.

   
The confusion started in the morning I did my usual routine, get out of the car and walk into school and stood with my friends. I looked around seeing the same familiar faces. I walked to first period by myself and sat in class just waiting for the period to be over Mr. Mullins my history teacher was teaching the battle of Bunker Hill and talking about Manatees. All I could get in my head however was Jake talking to me in 6th Period. The day went on like this all day until lunch when the boy who likes me sat next to me and lunch and kept glancing at me, I wondered if I was on his mind like Jake was on mine. This really confused me, why should I care? I like Jake why would I care what other people thought of me? I guess its the fact that he is the first person who actually liked me? I don't really know but I kind of like it. When I got to the last class of the day I walked in and sat next to Carley and Jake walked in I smiled and grinned at him. Nothing really just a casual walk by from him. But I didn't really think anything of it till now. We were in teams and created a mannequin and Jake kept making me laugh and smile then we got to take a picture together and now I can't wait for it to be posted. The bell rang and everyone went home I drove and the events of the day crossed my mind the whole way home.
 -Love always Mitchell